TheButterfly
09-28-2011, 09:54 PM
Discarding all the awful things he's put me through in the past, and all the good things too, the current pressing issue between my SO and I is the ever infamous "I'd like to see other people." Well, he didn't say it exactly like that, but what he did say was that he wants to try being with someone else to see if 'others are better' but he doesn't want to hurt or lose me and he would want to come back and be with me settle down etc. What I read from that was "Gee, I'd sure like to go be with someone else, but if it doesn't work out I guess I'll settle for you." He says he loves me, then says he hates who I am. He also insists I hate who he is and I'm just ignorant to it. He thinks I'm ignorant to everything, even my own self, thoughts and emotions. :/ I'm hurt by this, and by the fact that he wants to be with others. However I understand that we're young and and young people do that I guess.
He is delusional to the extreme and a huge jerk, at times worse than a jerk, but he's also (a good part of the time, especially when we see eachother) the sweetest person I have dated, my first love, my first real relationship, my first almost everything and I'm his first real girlfriend too. Anyway I've been fretting over that and the fact that I have morals and he 'doesn't'. I know we probably won't work out, but I really wish we could, he's become such a huge part of my life and has integrated me into his own. And I know that it will hurt more than words can express if it doesn't work out, but that I will be okay and things can get better. The dillemma here is, should we struggle through it and try to work things out and stick together? Or should I let him go on his merry way and satiate his curiosity? Sort of an 'if you love something set it free if it comes back it is yours' thing? I've got no idea. =/
He is delusional to the extreme and a huge jerk, at times worse than a jerk, but he's also (a good part of the time, especially when we see eachother) the sweetest person I have dated, my first love, my first real relationship, my first almost everything and I'm his first real girlfriend too. Anyway I've been fretting over that and the fact that I have morals and he 'doesn't'. I know we probably won't work out, but I really wish we could, he's become such a huge part of my life and has integrated me into his own. And I know that it will hurt more than words can express if it doesn't work out, but that I will be okay and things can get better. The dillemma here is, should we struggle through it and try to work things out and stick together? Or should I let him go on his merry way and satiate his curiosity? Sort of an 'if you love something set it free if it comes back it is yours' thing? I've got no idea. =/