I finally let go.

[Jamaicangirl]

I am not sure if I'd share my complicated story here before. But I shall not get into it if I didnt :)

So, I was badly hurted by the man I love since I was 20 years old back in 1992, he didn't propose until the problems came up in 2000 which I didn't accept :(

Living since 2000 keeping all the pains in, not talking about my problems, crying myself to sleep at night, burying myself deep into depression, hating every man because that one man did me wrong.

I finally started to talk about it...yes after so many years, with friends I could trust not to cast judgements on either of us. I cried on borrowed shoulders, laughed at how silly I was, talked to myself and got answers..nope I aint crazy.

Now I am smiling again, this man is not who I think about all day and night...not anymore as I used to do. Now I think about me, me and some more me.

I am so happy.

[Rich]

Good for you. Better late then never.

Life is all about moving on and moving forward. You learn from your mistakes and work to make the next realationship better.

The hardest thing to do sometimes is to step back and to look at things from a "10,000" foot view. It puts things in perspective when you can see the whole forrest and not just the trees.

Remember also, that relationships aren't life and death. So don't treat them as such.

Keep moving forward and don't be afraid to love and trust again. Hopefully you're better armed with what to look for and what you'll accept.

[Jamaicangirl]

Thanks alot Rich.
Right now, I am giving relationships a rest to know me as I didn't in the past. Giving myself time to heal and to get rid of all the hang ups I had, so when I start to date again, I will be a brand new person without a baggage or obstacle in my mind.
My only hope, it won't be too long.

[Rich]

You're welcome. Take all the time that you need. Men will always be there.

[Jamaicangirl]

Thanks much.
I hope there will be a single honest agable man when I am ready, because I am not young anymore.

[Howard]

It's great that you're thinking about yourself rather than on someone else,Focus on you and you only.;)