DSquared
04-20-2008, 05:50 AM
This is a fairly lengthy story but I will try to make it short. I met a guy through my old best friend, they met online so neither of us ever met eachother. The two of us talked for a while as friends and I always had a huge crush on him, we got pretty close for a while but I was already talking to a guy I had known for a little bit longer who wanted to be with me since we met. So me and the guy stayed friends... flirted all the time and got really close but I was already dating the guy at this point.. and I didn't think he liked me as much as I liked him. So the new b/f decided he didn't want us to talk so I had to tell him goodbye, and it broke my heart. For two years He was always on the back of my mind, I missed him and missed our friendship. He emailed me twice during the time and I desperately wanted to talk to him, so fairly recently (after about 2 years of not talking) I saw him online and decided to talk to him.
So fast forward to a couple of months ago, after I see him online we start talking again and everything just felt like it jumped right back in right where we left off.. we started talking about how long its been... he started to tell me how he missed me... and we talked all night and things came out. We both confessed how we liked eachother back then and how we missed eachother.. so for the next couple of months we would talk a lot email back and forth everyday, talking on the phone texting... I was still with my boyfriend from before and so it was getting ridiculous hiding things and not saying anything because I knew he would be mad and things would be crazy. Eventually he found out and things went insane. We broke up becaus I was lying to him and was talking to some one behind his back (still never met him though) So.. I still talk to him and we have gotten so much closer and developed strong feelings for eachother, we both feel like it's getting to the point that we could fall for eachother and I really wanted to go see him but he lives 2500 miles away so its not just an easy day trip by car.
So for the past two months I have been asking him when I am going to go out and vist him but he said he's scared because I'll be there and then after a week be gone and then what happens. He said he's not ready for it yet but I am and I don't know what to do. I told him I would be patient with him and wait until he's ready but I don't know what to do.. and we've both had the conversation just recently that we could both just fall for eachother very soon and I said that I really want to be there with him when that happens... but he's still just scared and It feels like we are running out of time in that department and I don't know what to do to make him realize it will be okay If go out there. We have both seen pictures of eachother so its not that either of us are afraid of that. I just don't know how to take that since we both really care about eachother and its really hard to continue doing this without knowing that eventually I'll be able to hold him, or just look at him. I just wish I knew what to do so that he would finally decide to let me come out there... any one else have any kind of experience with this sort of thing?? It's driving me crazy...
Thanks in advance to any one who read all of that, I know it was long but It could have been much longer with better details. Haha =)
So fast forward to a couple of months ago, after I see him online we start talking again and everything just felt like it jumped right back in right where we left off.. we started talking about how long its been... he started to tell me how he missed me... and we talked all night and things came out. We both confessed how we liked eachother back then and how we missed eachother.. so for the next couple of months we would talk a lot email back and forth everyday, talking on the phone texting... I was still with my boyfriend from before and so it was getting ridiculous hiding things and not saying anything because I knew he would be mad and things would be crazy. Eventually he found out and things went insane. We broke up becaus I was lying to him and was talking to some one behind his back (still never met him though) So.. I still talk to him and we have gotten so much closer and developed strong feelings for eachother, we both feel like it's getting to the point that we could fall for eachother and I really wanted to go see him but he lives 2500 miles away so its not just an easy day trip by car.
So for the past two months I have been asking him when I am going to go out and vist him but he said he's scared because I'll be there and then after a week be gone and then what happens. He said he's not ready for it yet but I am and I don't know what to do. I told him I would be patient with him and wait until he's ready but I don't know what to do.. and we've both had the conversation just recently that we could both just fall for eachother very soon and I said that I really want to be there with him when that happens... but he's still just scared and It feels like we are running out of time in that department and I don't know what to do to make him realize it will be okay If go out there. We have both seen pictures of eachother so its not that either of us are afraid of that. I just don't know how to take that since we both really care about eachother and its really hard to continue doing this without knowing that eventually I'll be able to hold him, or just look at him. I just wish I knew what to do so that he would finally decide to let me come out there... any one else have any kind of experience with this sort of thing?? It's driving me crazy...
Thanks in advance to any one who read all of that, I know it was long but It could have been much longer with better details. Haha =)