Ps

[Geriberry]

I am feeling rubbish today, upset and vulnerable as the Solicitor asked me what he had done to me in the marriage and its taken me emotionally back there. I did well to manage to go to work today afterwards and had a brilliant day at work as my friends are so supportive. I hope there is a time in the future I can discuss what he did to me without any feelings but I think that will be in the future. I feel dissapointed in myself that I was so stupid to put up with it and also five years down the line after the seperation it still haunts me. The reason for this is when he attacked me I wasnt allowed any of my own feelings without being reattacked by him so had to supress them all for 17 years.

[eightball61]

This will be a good place for you to let loose since you don't know any of us. We may not your family or a close friend but we'll still offer an ear for you.

[adoodle]

It's good you have supportive friends but you may end up in trouble at work if your discussing these problems during work. It could be a question of productivity.

That you feel you need to release your anger you could try journal-ing, which could be very theraputic.
You can also try some reading of books with subjects of letting go and forgiveness as your most likely more mad at yourself than you are at him, for toleraing it so long.