Nerdmann
10-01-2009, 10:35 PM
So, several years ago I dated this guy. He was a sophomore in HS while I was an eighth grader. I know, okay, it's slightly weird. Anyways, we had this crazy intense relationship and it ended badly after several months. I fell madly in love with him. Like, he was my first love and everything. And he was in love with me too, or at least he said so.
So fast forward a bit and we started talking and being friends again, sort of, and i was still completely into him. He had a girlfriend. I told him to choose. He chose her. To say the least, I was heartbroken. I yelled across a hall for him to go himself. We didn't talk for years, and I was okay with that. I needed to get over him.
So we fast forward to now. I'm several years older and wiser. And I thought I could just let myself be friends with him. So I allowed myself to see and talk to him. BIG ING MISTAKE. The moment I saw him, everything came back. And being who he is, he saw it written all over my face. When he hugged me, I felt the same sparks I always felt. So I told myself I wouldn't let it happen again. I stopped talking to him for a while, but today I just... I had to see him. So I left class early and met up with him. Butterflies returned and I was happy. It was like any stress I had just washed away. It was like we were together again. Eventually I had to leave though, my dad was picking me up and I didn't want him getting suspicious. He asked for one last hug and walked towards me, swept me up, and held me in this tight hug for what seemed like decades. Then, he gave me another one and we just stood there for a while, holding each other, and he kissed my neck. Now, to understand any of this, you have to know,he was the first boy I did anything beyond kissing with. We didn't go all the way or anything, but we had our moments. And he knew, he knows that kissing me on the neck is one of the main things that made me fall for him. And he just, did it. Again. Like it was nothing, but it was SO something.
Now, I don't know what to do. I love this man, but my parents would kill me and him if we were together. Help?
So fast forward a bit and we started talking and being friends again, sort of, and i was still completely into him. He had a girlfriend. I told him to choose. He chose her. To say the least, I was heartbroken. I yelled across a hall for him to go himself. We didn't talk for years, and I was okay with that. I needed to get over him.
So we fast forward to now. I'm several years older and wiser. And I thought I could just let myself be friends with him. So I allowed myself to see and talk to him. BIG ING MISTAKE. The moment I saw him, everything came back. And being who he is, he saw it written all over my face. When he hugged me, I felt the same sparks I always felt. So I told myself I wouldn't let it happen again. I stopped talking to him for a while, but today I just... I had to see him. So I left class early and met up with him. Butterflies returned and I was happy. It was like any stress I had just washed away. It was like we were together again. Eventually I had to leave though, my dad was picking me up and I didn't want him getting suspicious. He asked for one last hug and walked towards me, swept me up, and held me in this tight hug for what seemed like decades. Then, he gave me another one and we just stood there for a while, holding each other, and he kissed my neck. Now, to understand any of this, you have to know,he was the first boy I did anything beyond kissing with. We didn't go all the way or anything, but we had our moments. And he knew, he knows that kissing me on the neck is one of the main things that made me fall for him. And he just, did it. Again. Like it was nothing, but it was SO something.
Now, I don't know what to do. I love this man, but my parents would kill me and him if we were together. Help?