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holyGOAT
10-15-2009, 01:52 AM
Well im stuck. Its been a over a year and a half since my soon to be ex wife decided she wanted to get a divorce. I did everything underneath the sun to screw up our relationship. You know how they say dont do this this and that at the begining of the break up? Yeah i did pretty much all of that. I sent texts to her long after she told me she wanted the divorce trying to convince her im different, im a better person etc.... I tried driving 3 hours to see her and surprise her but that blew up in my face. She lives 3 hours out of town because she is in the military now. In fact she deploys to Iraq in less than a month. Around february i got fed up with what she was doing and so i started yelling at her and telling her her faults for the past year. Since then i havent really kept any open communication with her although if i wanted to i can easily begin talking to her as a friend. I dont want to be her friend. Knowing another person is dating her tears me up. i never wanted to share her ever. I have been told not to talk to her as if i care or not to show i care anymore. I have been told to let the divorce happen which if we wanted to stop it now its far too late. Im just supposed to wait. ive been waiting for half a year and i think ive waited long enough. What can I possibly do to show her i still love her, but i dont need her, and something that can get a fast reaction, but strong? I had thought a well thought out letter, but then i dont want to jeapordize what im going after in the divorce. I know that sounds funny but i have my reasons.

smackie9
10-16-2009, 03:15 AM
If you want all this to be over....just let go. I'm sure after your divorce is all settled you will be able to finally exhale, put this all behind you and let yourself heal emotionally.

holyGOAT
10-16-2009, 04:20 AM
Well yeah i guess thats what i should do. I do need to close this chapter of my life before moving on. I was just hoping to find some way to show my ex wife that i do still love her, but im not asking for her back. If that makes sense. i dont want to make it seem like im begging her to come back, because im not. She leaves to Iraq in less than a month, and i want to let her know i still love her before she goes, that way while shes over there its in her mind that im here when she gets back. I want to impress her so shell start thinking about me again. I know if i did something not me and awesome i can get in her head, my only problem is i dont know what to do. Any ideas would be awesome.

smackie9
10-18-2009, 11:21 PM
She knows you still love her. We all keep a special place in our heart for our past loves. The fact is she wants you to move on, as she has done so. Letting go is your first step....time to leap.

holyGOAT
10-19-2009, 01:05 AM
That makes sense. I do need to let go already. Weird thing is is she hasnt dated anybody this entire time. I know it really doesnt mean anything. Its just not like her not to be involved with somebody else 1 year later. I know im being stubborn but i will take your advice to heart. Thank You.