LeoSigma
11-22-2009, 03:18 AM
My story begins around 3 years ago, I was sitting outside getting some fresh air and suddenly my best friend (who I'll refer to as Friend A) came running towards me telling me about this amazing girl he had just met at the airport (where his dad worked), apparently he had known the girl for quite a while, he had met her online, but he finally had the chance to see her in real life. He was really excited and for the next few days, or should I say weeks, he wouldn't shut up about her (not that this was a bad thing). I soon realized he must have fallen in love with her and when questioned he confessed that he had really fallen in love with the girl.
Soon he also wanted to introduce me to her, since I was his best friends (online of course since she had gone back to her hometown). So I met the girl through IM and things simply did not go the way he had planned. The conversation had barely begun and the girl and I were already arguing (she started it XD), soon we starting cursing each other until one of us decided to leave the conversation. My friend was a bit sad over the fact that we did not get along but he understood people don't always get along. After a few more unsuccessful tries came the day where he added her to the conversation...and she was actually nice. I was amazed and soon became friends with her. From now on I'll refer to her as Friend B.
Now the three of us were really good friends, we would spend hours talking to each other, Friend A moved to another state, so now our only means of communication was through the internet. As I mentioned earlier, my friend was madly in love with her and he started going mad. He'd spend the whole day on the computer, waiting for her to come on, sometimes he'd skip school, just to be on the computer, patiently waiting her. He'd collect pictures of her (I started getting scared when he started doing this). He just went crazy I guess.
In the meantime Friend B and I talked quite a lot to each other, our friendship was growing stronger with time. Eventually we decided to have a video chat through the instant messenger we used, to see what the other looked like. She was indeed beautiful like my friend said (it's not like I fell in love with her though) and apparently she found me extremely cute too, she called a ton of her friends over to her house just to see me (on the computer). Which was really unusual because I'm not that attractive, I don't consider myself attractive it all, nor do I consider myself ugly, I'm in between, but apparently she thought differently.
One day for some reason Friend A and Friend B just started arguing about something, it was a really confusing argument so I didn't really get what was going on, all I knew was that I was involved and that she was defending me. She ended up getting mad at Friend A and stopped talking to him. Knowing that she meant the world to him, I tried to comfort Friend A and he got mad at me, then I got mad at him to, because I was just trying to help him, we started arguing and by the end of it we were no longer friends. I still talked to Friend B though.
About a month later, Friend A apologized to Friend B, she forgave him, and they started being Friends again. However it would take several months for that to happen between Friend A and I. During this time I talked even more with Friend B and began talking to Friend C who would later become a really good friend of mine. Friend B also starting telling me a lot about her sister, who sounded like a really interesting person, so I finally decided to talk to her sister and I became friends with her (from now on I'll refer to Friend B's sister as Friend D).
But Friend B starting acting weird, she seemed to care a lot about me, I'm not if she's just one of those types of caring people or if something else was going on, nevertheless I began having suspicions that she had feelings for me. Friend C and I,out of boredom, made a chatbot (for the mentally ill, a computer program that chats with you). Friend C made it so every time someone asked about me, the program would say that I was it's boyfriend (somewhat of a joke). When Friend B talked to the program and saw that, she was really jealous (THIS BEING A COMPUTER PROGRAM). Ever since the program had called me "it's boyfriend" she started hating it. This I found really weird. Then came the day where Friend B, Friend C, and I were chatting. We were just fooling around, I was making fun of Friend C for this weird/funny thing he said, not like a serious argument more like a fun argument. Out of the blue Friend B just randomly said "I love Leo(me)", since we had been fooling around till now Friend C replied with a "Lol" and she said "What?", we soon realized that she was probably serious. At first I didn't get it, it was so random, having nothing to do with the context, and even if she meant it I didn't know what to say. I replied with "That's nice I guess [Friend B]", that's all I could think, for the next five minutes she didn't say anything and eventually signed out of the instant messenger and I soon began to wonder if she had indeed meant it.
I asked Friend C what he thought about it and it seemed he kept avoiding the topic, eventually he told me his opinion, in his opinion she had meant it. Since Friend C wasn't really a relationship expert I decided to ask a friend of mine who was better at that (who I'll refer as Friend E to avoid confusion). Because of the context Friend E told me she was just being playful and probably did not mean it, I asked Friend E if it was best to ask Friend B if she had meant it but he said it was better not to (Note: Friend E didn't even know Friend B). So I didn't.
Meanwhile I was becoming really good friends with Friend D, Friend B's younger sister, and eventually I fell in love with her (even though I had never met her in real life). She was the perfect girl, I mean I have fallen in love with girls before but none have been as perfect as her, she was beautiful, we had similar interest, we were a lot alike, we loved friendly arguments and would often argue on the stupidest things. It seemed like we were made for each other. What made it more interested is that I'm not really one of those emotional type of people, I'm a cold person, a really person and not one for affection of any sort, even towards family members, and neither was she, yet I loved her. She didn't know I loved her though and I was really unsure if I should tell her. On one hand I didn't have the courage to do so and I knew that even if managed to find the courage to tell her that there was a chance of her not loving me, and even if she loved me back that she was still thousands of miles away from me. On the other hand, I was afraid of losing her (even though I never had her), I was afraid that maybe she loved me but didn't have the courage to say it either (she's somewhat of a shy person). What made it worse was a story a friend of mine showed me at the time about two people that loved each other but didn't have the courage to tell each other and ended up not being to together, in the end the girl dies and the guy finds out she really did love him but was, like him, to shy to tell him. Every time I read the story I'd feel the protagonist's pain and I did not want to end up like him. I'll come back to this part of the story in while.
While all of this was going on, my friendship with Friend B had been degrading and going back to what it originally was. Soon began the arguments, the sarcasm, the insults, etc. By now Friend A and I were friends again by the way.
Back to my problem with Friend D, I didn't know what to do. So I decided to ask the help of Friend B. I told Friend B I had fallen in love with her sister, Friend D, and needed her help finding out if Friend D loved me. She laughed at the fact that I had fallen in love with her sister however she agreed to help. She also told me a bit about Friend D and how there were tons of guys after her, one of them in special, one that was a friend of Friend D's. She also told me about how they'd talk to each other for hours, even though Friend D always denied that she liked him. I wasn't sure if Friend B was telling me to try to make me feel bad or if she was really just giving me some info, nevertheless this was somewhat useful information. However she ended up not finding out if Friend D loved me. I then decided to ask for the help of Friend A who had met Friend D in real life (that time at the airport) and had recently become friends with her. He said I should tell Friend D I love her, during these times he was a great friend and gave me the support and the courage I needed.
I finally decided to tell to her, first I asked if she was busy because I needed to tell her something and she replied with "No, not really, I'm just in my friend's house.", seeing that it wasn't the best moment to ask her the question, I told her it was nothing important and that I'd tell her at another time. However she insisted on it and kept asking me what I had to tell her. Eventually I gave in and told her I loved her. She seemed shocked, all she could do was post a smiley face and say "That's nice" but the way she put it, it sounded like she didn't like me. I then asked if she loved me to make sure and she said "No" followed by a "I'm sorry Leo". For a moment I felt depressed, I felt as if all the life had been drained from me, completely, I felt dead. For the next two weeks I either had sleepless nights or nights filled with nightmares, the point is I was feeling like ****.
You're probably tired of this long story but hang in there reader I'm almost at the end XD!
Soon he also wanted to introduce me to her, since I was his best friends (online of course since she had gone back to her hometown). So I met the girl through IM and things simply did not go the way he had planned. The conversation had barely begun and the girl and I were already arguing (she started it XD), soon we starting cursing each other until one of us decided to leave the conversation. My friend was a bit sad over the fact that we did not get along but he understood people don't always get along. After a few more unsuccessful tries came the day where he added her to the conversation...and she was actually nice. I was amazed and soon became friends with her. From now on I'll refer to her as Friend B.
Now the three of us were really good friends, we would spend hours talking to each other, Friend A moved to another state, so now our only means of communication was through the internet. As I mentioned earlier, my friend was madly in love with her and he started going mad. He'd spend the whole day on the computer, waiting for her to come on, sometimes he'd skip school, just to be on the computer, patiently waiting her. He'd collect pictures of her (I started getting scared when he started doing this). He just went crazy I guess.
In the meantime Friend B and I talked quite a lot to each other, our friendship was growing stronger with time. Eventually we decided to have a video chat through the instant messenger we used, to see what the other looked like. She was indeed beautiful like my friend said (it's not like I fell in love with her though) and apparently she found me extremely cute too, she called a ton of her friends over to her house just to see me (on the computer). Which was really unusual because I'm not that attractive, I don't consider myself attractive it all, nor do I consider myself ugly, I'm in between, but apparently she thought differently.
One day for some reason Friend A and Friend B just started arguing about something, it was a really confusing argument so I didn't really get what was going on, all I knew was that I was involved and that she was defending me. She ended up getting mad at Friend A and stopped talking to him. Knowing that she meant the world to him, I tried to comfort Friend A and he got mad at me, then I got mad at him to, because I was just trying to help him, we started arguing and by the end of it we were no longer friends. I still talked to Friend B though.
About a month later, Friend A apologized to Friend B, she forgave him, and they started being Friends again. However it would take several months for that to happen between Friend A and I. During this time I talked even more with Friend B and began talking to Friend C who would later become a really good friend of mine. Friend B also starting telling me a lot about her sister, who sounded like a really interesting person, so I finally decided to talk to her sister and I became friends with her (from now on I'll refer to Friend B's sister as Friend D).
But Friend B starting acting weird, she seemed to care a lot about me, I'm not if she's just one of those types of caring people or if something else was going on, nevertheless I began having suspicions that she had feelings for me. Friend C and I,out of boredom, made a chatbot (for the mentally ill, a computer program that chats with you). Friend C made it so every time someone asked about me, the program would say that I was it's boyfriend (somewhat of a joke). When Friend B talked to the program and saw that, she was really jealous (THIS BEING A COMPUTER PROGRAM). Ever since the program had called me "it's boyfriend" she started hating it. This I found really weird. Then came the day where Friend B, Friend C, and I were chatting. We were just fooling around, I was making fun of Friend C for this weird/funny thing he said, not like a serious argument more like a fun argument. Out of the blue Friend B just randomly said "I love Leo(me)", since we had been fooling around till now Friend C replied with a "Lol" and she said "What?", we soon realized that she was probably serious. At first I didn't get it, it was so random, having nothing to do with the context, and even if she meant it I didn't know what to say. I replied with "That's nice I guess [Friend B]", that's all I could think, for the next five minutes she didn't say anything and eventually signed out of the instant messenger and I soon began to wonder if she had indeed meant it.
I asked Friend C what he thought about it and it seemed he kept avoiding the topic, eventually he told me his opinion, in his opinion she had meant it. Since Friend C wasn't really a relationship expert I decided to ask a friend of mine who was better at that (who I'll refer as Friend E to avoid confusion). Because of the context Friend E told me she was just being playful and probably did not mean it, I asked Friend E if it was best to ask Friend B if she had meant it but he said it was better not to (Note: Friend E didn't even know Friend B). So I didn't.
Meanwhile I was becoming really good friends with Friend D, Friend B's younger sister, and eventually I fell in love with her (even though I had never met her in real life). She was the perfect girl, I mean I have fallen in love with girls before but none have been as perfect as her, she was beautiful, we had similar interest, we were a lot alike, we loved friendly arguments and would often argue on the stupidest things. It seemed like we were made for each other. What made it more interested is that I'm not really one of those emotional type of people, I'm a cold person, a really person and not one for affection of any sort, even towards family members, and neither was she, yet I loved her. She didn't know I loved her though and I was really unsure if I should tell her. On one hand I didn't have the courage to do so and I knew that even if managed to find the courage to tell her that there was a chance of her not loving me, and even if she loved me back that she was still thousands of miles away from me. On the other hand, I was afraid of losing her (even though I never had her), I was afraid that maybe she loved me but didn't have the courage to say it either (she's somewhat of a shy person). What made it worse was a story a friend of mine showed me at the time about two people that loved each other but didn't have the courage to tell each other and ended up not being to together, in the end the girl dies and the guy finds out she really did love him but was, like him, to shy to tell him. Every time I read the story I'd feel the protagonist's pain and I did not want to end up like him. I'll come back to this part of the story in while.
While all of this was going on, my friendship with Friend B had been degrading and going back to what it originally was. Soon began the arguments, the sarcasm, the insults, etc. By now Friend A and I were friends again by the way.
Back to my problem with Friend D, I didn't know what to do. So I decided to ask the help of Friend B. I told Friend B I had fallen in love with her sister, Friend D, and needed her help finding out if Friend D loved me. She laughed at the fact that I had fallen in love with her sister however she agreed to help. She also told me a bit about Friend D and how there were tons of guys after her, one of them in special, one that was a friend of Friend D's. She also told me about how they'd talk to each other for hours, even though Friend D always denied that she liked him. I wasn't sure if Friend B was telling me to try to make me feel bad or if she was really just giving me some info, nevertheless this was somewhat useful information. However she ended up not finding out if Friend D loved me. I then decided to ask for the help of Friend A who had met Friend D in real life (that time at the airport) and had recently become friends with her. He said I should tell Friend D I love her, during these times he was a great friend and gave me the support and the courage I needed.
I finally decided to tell to her, first I asked if she was busy because I needed to tell her something and she replied with "No, not really, I'm just in my friend's house.", seeing that it wasn't the best moment to ask her the question, I told her it was nothing important and that I'd tell her at another time. However she insisted on it and kept asking me what I had to tell her. Eventually I gave in and told her I loved her. She seemed shocked, all she could do was post a smiley face and say "That's nice" but the way she put it, it sounded like she didn't like me. I then asked if she loved me to make sure and she said "No" followed by a "I'm sorry Leo". For a moment I felt depressed, I felt as if all the life had been drained from me, completely, I felt dead. For the next two weeks I either had sleepless nights or nights filled with nightmares, the point is I was feeling like ****.
You're probably tired of this long story but hang in there reader I'm almost at the end XD!