starsight
05-04-2010, 09:12 PM
Ok, we weren't together at the time so he didn't cheat on me. We'd been together for 3 years off and on before this happened... we were talking about getting married after 2 years and we got pregnant on purpose but I had a miscarriage. We were fussing a lot, and he would ask me to go out with him or do something with him and I'd say no. Every time we broke up was always me, I was confused about him, I broke up with him for a lot reasons, including that my family hated him, different things. But every time I wanted him back he would come back. He was dating someone else one of the times and left her for me. Even the month before he got with the girl he got pregnant we were fussing and I told him if there was someone else to go for it because I thought he'd be happier and I wasn't sure what I wanted... I just wanted to get all of that out because I've seen stuff where people will say the guy cheated or it's his fault or whatever. I know if I'd been with him and hadn't kept pushing him away that he would never have left me or been with her, so I know that it is my fault that it happened...
We had been talking again and told each other we loved each other before he got with her... but we hadn't been out or seen each other in about a month. The day he told me he wanted space was the day he started seeing her, they had that day and 2 days later the broke and is when she got pregnant. I hadn't talked to him for a little over a week when SHE texted me from his phone telling me they were having a baby. I cried the whole time he was with her, I always missed him when I tried to leave him... He's not a bad guy, we just didn't see eye-to-eye on a lot of things and I would think I shouldn't be with him, it was stupid. I started feeling like he was someone that was supposed to be in my life & someone I always wanted in it... even though he was with someone else and having a baby with her. So after they'd been together for a little over 2 months I texted asking if I could talk to him because I didn't want to if she didn't want me to or to get him in trouble or anything... we talked, she wasn't there, he told me how bad things were going. She had been with someone else the week before him and she'd spent the night at the same guy's house after they found out she was pregnant so he didn't know if the baby was his and he told me how they argued all the time and how she was treating him. She left him about a week later... about 2 weeks later I moved in with him and I've been living with him since the end of October, things have been great with us. The girl that had his baby is saying she's marrying the guy that she spent the night with and everything, he was actually her ex...
She had the baby 3 weeks ago and we did a paternity test and found out yesterday that it is in fact my boyfriend's. I've been crying the entire time she was pregnant, and since yesterday... I do want to stay with him and help him and everything. I love him, I just wish I'd realized how much before all of this happened. But the thing that bothers me so much... that no one I talk to seems to understand is that... it doesn't seem fair to me that I lost our baby, one we wanted and tried to have on purpose and then the breaks and it was an accident and they have one... I know I'm not completely over the miscarriage... and every time I think about my boyfriend and I before the other girl I just start crying... it wasn't supposed to happen... the day he got with her I told him I'd move in with him right then like he'd been asking me to for years, I didn't even know about her I just didn't understand why he was saying he wanted space... He said he couldn't believe me because I would turn around dump him all the time after I'd say something and I can't blame him for that...
I know this is long... and I know I made a lot of mistakes... I just need some advice to get over this... where I'm not crying all the time because of that baby or every time I think about us. I know what I want to do and I want to help him with the baby and everything, this is just kinda holding me back..
We had been talking again and told each other we loved each other before he got with her... but we hadn't been out or seen each other in about a month. The day he told me he wanted space was the day he started seeing her, they had that day and 2 days later the broke and is when she got pregnant. I hadn't talked to him for a little over a week when SHE texted me from his phone telling me they were having a baby. I cried the whole time he was with her, I always missed him when I tried to leave him... He's not a bad guy, we just didn't see eye-to-eye on a lot of things and I would think I shouldn't be with him, it was stupid. I started feeling like he was someone that was supposed to be in my life & someone I always wanted in it... even though he was with someone else and having a baby with her. So after they'd been together for a little over 2 months I texted asking if I could talk to him because I didn't want to if she didn't want me to or to get him in trouble or anything... we talked, she wasn't there, he told me how bad things were going. She had been with someone else the week before him and she'd spent the night at the same guy's house after they found out she was pregnant so he didn't know if the baby was his and he told me how they argued all the time and how she was treating him. She left him about a week later... about 2 weeks later I moved in with him and I've been living with him since the end of October, things have been great with us. The girl that had his baby is saying she's marrying the guy that she spent the night with and everything, he was actually her ex...
She had the baby 3 weeks ago and we did a paternity test and found out yesterday that it is in fact my boyfriend's. I've been crying the entire time she was pregnant, and since yesterday... I do want to stay with him and help him and everything. I love him, I just wish I'd realized how much before all of this happened. But the thing that bothers me so much... that no one I talk to seems to understand is that... it doesn't seem fair to me that I lost our baby, one we wanted and tried to have on purpose and then the breaks and it was an accident and they have one... I know I'm not completely over the miscarriage... and every time I think about my boyfriend and I before the other girl I just start crying... it wasn't supposed to happen... the day he got with her I told him I'd move in with him right then like he'd been asking me to for years, I didn't even know about her I just didn't understand why he was saying he wanted space... He said he couldn't believe me because I would turn around dump him all the time after I'd say something and I can't blame him for that...
I know this is long... and I know I made a lot of mistakes... I just need some advice to get over this... where I'm not crying all the time because of that baby or every time I think about us. I know what I want to do and I want to help him with the baby and everything, this is just kinda holding me back..