Sir Anton
06-24-2010, 11:46 AM
Hi all, please comment i would like to hear your views.
I am a 37yr old male engaged to a 27yr old female. The engagement was broken off by me.
A litle history. I have been divorced for 9yrs. I met my ex-fiance 3.5yrs ago. I stay alone and have my 2 kids stay with me for 2 weeks at a time and then they stay with their biological mother for 2 weeks aswell. This is our cycle. My ex-fiance had been staying with her parents mostly and has attepmted to move out twice now only to find herself back at the parents to help financially and to keep a close eye on them. I am not a very big talker and never have been. However my partner is, and to add a very deep serious one about total openess. I have been trying to be as deeply open as her but with the guide of her help to get me their. I have tried to be her everything in life as far as looking out for her, and accepting her parents as she has accepted my kids. Physically i have put in all the effort to be by her side. However, emotionally i tend to battle their a bit. As much as i want to be on that level with her i get it wrong every time. In the past month or so we had been in a very bad spot with each other. Not talking, no happiness ... nothing!. This at a time when i so needed her physical attention to which i was not getting. To add to it, me not being all that open and always trying to avoid conflict, i could not get through. Knowingly we were on a path of destruction i would continue to get through, however, maybe i did not do enough or the rite things not said ... i dont know. Anyway i got to a stage where i was soo deeply in need of any TLC from her that when i was not getting it. I did the most stupid thing and walked out on us. This being 4 months prior to our wedding day. It was all just a hope that she could see how badly i needed her to come through for me. Well i am now to pay the price that i may never see her again. I have broken all trust and believe that she may have with me. Now the problem is I Love her so deeply and made an enormous mistake, but i know she does still love me. What do i do ???
I am a 37yr old male engaged to a 27yr old female. The engagement was broken off by me.
A litle history. I have been divorced for 9yrs. I met my ex-fiance 3.5yrs ago. I stay alone and have my 2 kids stay with me for 2 weeks at a time and then they stay with their biological mother for 2 weeks aswell. This is our cycle. My ex-fiance had been staying with her parents mostly and has attepmted to move out twice now only to find herself back at the parents to help financially and to keep a close eye on them. I am not a very big talker and never have been. However my partner is, and to add a very deep serious one about total openess. I have been trying to be as deeply open as her but with the guide of her help to get me their. I have tried to be her everything in life as far as looking out for her, and accepting her parents as she has accepted my kids. Physically i have put in all the effort to be by her side. However, emotionally i tend to battle their a bit. As much as i want to be on that level with her i get it wrong every time. In the past month or so we had been in a very bad spot with each other. Not talking, no happiness ... nothing!. This at a time when i so needed her physical attention to which i was not getting. To add to it, me not being all that open and always trying to avoid conflict, i could not get through. Knowingly we were on a path of destruction i would continue to get through, however, maybe i did not do enough or the rite things not said ... i dont know. Anyway i got to a stage where i was soo deeply in need of any TLC from her that when i was not getting it. I did the most stupid thing and walked out on us. This being 4 months prior to our wedding day. It was all just a hope that she could see how badly i needed her to come through for me. Well i am now to pay the price that i may never see her again. I have broken all trust and believe that she may have with me. Now the problem is I Love her so deeply and made an enormous mistake, but i know she does still love me. What do i do ???