onestepcloser
05-09-2005, 06:17 AM
4 months ago i met some guy in an Ireland chatroom and hit it off very well. we exchanged email addresses and phone numbers to eachother. we started out as being just friends cuz we knew if we dated it wouldnt work out. cuz of the distance. me living in America (22) and him (29, turning 30 in a week) living in Ireland. would makes things hard. but later on as weeks past..we became closer and decided to give the relationship a try. than, things seem to go pretty fast.... he seemed he wanted to get a little too serious with me. sending me tons of love songs through the mail, chocolates, money for a new bike(old one got stolen) im okay with it now. just at the beginning was a little too fast for me.
Anyways, he has said to me that he loves me and only wants me to be happy. Im not sure if i love him. i think its more of a crush than love....maybe....i dont know. But anyways, the problem is we fight or argure over stupid things.... but some of it isnt stupid. like for instance when it comes to buying gifts for eachother. 4 days ago... he told me he finally bought himself a new toothbrush....and told me last week hes planning to send me one. i know its funny, and silly sending me a toothbrush. but i thinks sorta cute, sweet and thoughtful. but anyways, i just asked him if hes still going to send me one. and than he asked me "why??? im not made out of money. i already spent over $150 on you in one months time. " than i got upset, and said "ok, its just you said you would. im not that kind of person that would say hey, buy me this right now! or else.
than he didnt talk to me. ignored me...and i kept telling him that im not who he thinks i am. a selfish spoiled person. im not and he should know that by now. i tell him that im not all the time. i always appreciate the things he buys for me and i told him that. i dont know...maybe he thinks im taking advantage of him and his love for me. am i? no i am not. i care about him..i dont know if i love him...but i really care about his feelings and i would never try to hurt him in anyway.
but anyways, i think he might think i am since i remember him telling me his ex of 2 1/2 yrs was a little. i dont know. anyways... my boyfriend and i now talk on the msn messsanger since his phone bill is really high now...use to call me every night. ever since that little fight we had 4 days ago...he hasnt been talking to me. i ask him whats wrong? why arent u talking to me? do u need space? are u giving me space. let me know.
i told him that its stupid ignoring eachother. today, i told him that i dont understand y youre not talking to me. still didnt answer. i want to call him, but a little scared to. i dont want him to hang up on me or anything. he never has. told me to give him a call if im stressed about something. i dont know. weve always been there for eachother. im confused so much. should i give him a call? what should i do? should i just not talk to him for a few days? theres more to it in this story. but im just going to leave it at this till someone replies. :) so much to write. lol. he did send me 2 funny emails...he usually sends me emails all the time. was just surprised to get some from him since hes not speaking to me. On Saturday, i told him "thanks for the emails...at least i know youre still alive." than i went offline. usually he would be the first to go off since the fight. doesnt say anything...i do all the talking...than he goes offline.
He leaves me hanging....whats up with that? i miss him so much! :confused: said he would never do that to me. strange. what do u think guys? do u need more information? there is more... please let me know. thanks. :)
Anyways, he has said to me that he loves me and only wants me to be happy. Im not sure if i love him. i think its more of a crush than love....maybe....i dont know. But anyways, the problem is we fight or argure over stupid things.... but some of it isnt stupid. like for instance when it comes to buying gifts for eachother. 4 days ago... he told me he finally bought himself a new toothbrush....and told me last week hes planning to send me one. i know its funny, and silly sending me a toothbrush. but i thinks sorta cute, sweet and thoughtful. but anyways, i just asked him if hes still going to send me one. and than he asked me "why??? im not made out of money. i already spent over $150 on you in one months time. " than i got upset, and said "ok, its just you said you would. im not that kind of person that would say hey, buy me this right now! or else.
than he didnt talk to me. ignored me...and i kept telling him that im not who he thinks i am. a selfish spoiled person. im not and he should know that by now. i tell him that im not all the time. i always appreciate the things he buys for me and i told him that. i dont know...maybe he thinks im taking advantage of him and his love for me. am i? no i am not. i care about him..i dont know if i love him...but i really care about his feelings and i would never try to hurt him in anyway.
but anyways, i think he might think i am since i remember him telling me his ex of 2 1/2 yrs was a little. i dont know. anyways... my boyfriend and i now talk on the msn messsanger since his phone bill is really high now...use to call me every night. ever since that little fight we had 4 days ago...he hasnt been talking to me. i ask him whats wrong? why arent u talking to me? do u need space? are u giving me space. let me know.
i told him that its stupid ignoring eachother. today, i told him that i dont understand y youre not talking to me. still didnt answer. i want to call him, but a little scared to. i dont want him to hang up on me or anything. he never has. told me to give him a call if im stressed about something. i dont know. weve always been there for eachother. im confused so much. should i give him a call? what should i do? should i just not talk to him for a few days? theres more to it in this story. but im just going to leave it at this till someone replies. :) so much to write. lol. he did send me 2 funny emails...he usually sends me emails all the time. was just surprised to get some from him since hes not speaking to me. On Saturday, i told him "thanks for the emails...at least i know youre still alive." than i went offline. usually he would be the first to go off since the fight. doesnt say anything...i do all the talking...than he goes offline.
He leaves me hanging....whats up with that? i miss him so much! :confused: said he would never do that to me. strange. what do u think guys? do u need more information? there is more... please let me know. thanks. :)