iluvskittles
12-09-2010, 11:09 PM
Ok, so I just really need some advice from people who dont know me... I have a pretty serious anxiety disorder, and it sometimes makes life very difficult. Anyhoo, I'm really sensitive about it, in fact only a few of my friends even know I have it cuz I try to keep it a secret.
Well, I'm trying to shorten this as much as possible, but I can't deal with my mom she did something that's well...kinda crazy.. We got into an argument the other day and she, knowing how sensitive I am about my condition, said to my face "Your thinking is twisted." And she had this almost-smile when she said it like ha! i got u there.. It was really creepy. The fact that my mom of all people would treat me that way.
And not just that, but she constantly does things that she knows are going to upset me.. Ive been noticing it for a long time but I always tell myself no, I'm blowing it out of proportion and whatnot...but my gut keeps telling me she does it on purpose, like shes playing mind games or something.
Once when I was twelve, I was kinda chubby, my mom told me when she was my age she was skinny and just walked off, didnt apologize, nothing. I've never forgotten that.. Done stuff like that my whole life..
This is embarrassing to say, but once she had her friend over and she didnt know I was coming down the hallway and I heard her telling her friend stuff I'd told her in confidence, like really personal stuff I was feeling nervous about... but not in a concerned motherly way, it sounded like they were gossiping about me...
I don't trust her anymore, I'm not exaggerating.. I've been dealing with this for years; most of it's had-to-be-there to understand, but she never sticks up for me, even when I'd been abused (long story) she never helped and she always blames everything on me. Yet whenever I complain to her, she never wants to hear it and somehow it always ends up back on me. She's always done stuff to humiliate me my whole life...how can it all be an accident all the time? I've talked to my sibling about it, and they agree that my mom has done some pretty evil, underhanded stuff..
I'm through denying it- I think my mom is like some emotionally abusive manipulater or something... what am i supposed to do? Go to a therapist? Say 'hey mom, I'm taking you to a shrink cuz Im kinda starting to think your missing a wingnut'... HELP! Any advice? (Sorry for the length)
Well, I'm trying to shorten this as much as possible, but I can't deal with my mom she did something that's well...kinda crazy.. We got into an argument the other day and she, knowing how sensitive I am about my condition, said to my face "Your thinking is twisted." And she had this almost-smile when she said it like ha! i got u there.. It was really creepy. The fact that my mom of all people would treat me that way.
And not just that, but she constantly does things that she knows are going to upset me.. Ive been noticing it for a long time but I always tell myself no, I'm blowing it out of proportion and whatnot...but my gut keeps telling me she does it on purpose, like shes playing mind games or something.
Once when I was twelve, I was kinda chubby, my mom told me when she was my age she was skinny and just walked off, didnt apologize, nothing. I've never forgotten that.. Done stuff like that my whole life..
This is embarrassing to say, but once she had her friend over and she didnt know I was coming down the hallway and I heard her telling her friend stuff I'd told her in confidence, like really personal stuff I was feeling nervous about... but not in a concerned motherly way, it sounded like they were gossiping about me...
I don't trust her anymore, I'm not exaggerating.. I've been dealing with this for years; most of it's had-to-be-there to understand, but she never sticks up for me, even when I'd been abused (long story) she never helped and she always blames everything on me. Yet whenever I complain to her, she never wants to hear it and somehow it always ends up back on me. She's always done stuff to humiliate me my whole life...how can it all be an accident all the time? I've talked to my sibling about it, and they agree that my mom has done some pretty evil, underhanded stuff..
I'm through denying it- I think my mom is like some emotionally abusive manipulater or something... what am i supposed to do? Go to a therapist? Say 'hey mom, I'm taking you to a shrink cuz Im kinda starting to think your missing a wingnut'... HELP! Any advice? (Sorry for the length)