luvbugbee
12-22-2010, 10:42 PM
I come from a family of girls and everyone seems to be so happy and lucky in their partners but me. I have two sisters who married their high school sweethearts and are still so happy. Their husbands are sweet and do whatever they want.
I've been with my bf for a year now. At first he was an incredible sweet and shy guy but as I got to know him better he's actually quite different from his first impression. He's a jokster and is always trying to be funny or a smart ass. I find this amusing sometimes but he can be embarrassing to be around especially around my family.
He tells me he loves me and we have a lot of very tender moments. But he's emotionally withdrawn and rarely talks about his feelings or even his family. When I ask him questions he'll act like I'm prying into him. He can also be rude to me and hurt my feelings by some of his dumb jokes. I humor him sometimes and laugh but other times I hate being the butt of his jokes. He doesn't make fun of me in front of his friends or anything (anymore anyway, we had a talk about it) but it still gets on my nerves. Even his best friend has told me that he thinks my bf is dumb for not realizing what a great girl I am.
Its not all him, I know that I over think a lot... I've been told A LOT. I have an active imagination and sometimes when I'm not with him I get very suspicious of what he is doing. I don't know if I can trust him to not do something stupid like cheat on me or something. Whenever I start getting suspicious or paranoid he'll get moody and tell me I'm acting weird and he doesn't want to talk to me.
Good things about our relationship is that he makes me laugh. He can be very tender and I like it when tells me how much he loves me in such a soft way. I think he's smart but he can be arrogant about it. We can spend an entire evening hanging out just watching tv and have a great time. We don't have many date nights because we're both tight on money (especially him) but we'll always have a good time together.
Our life use to be very steamy and I've had the best with him as my partner. But lately it seems we've both become self conscious and sometimes can't get all the way past home base. Sometimes I fake it...while other times he keeps going until exhausted but doesn't cum...
My point is... he's not perfect and there are definitely things I wish were different and I've been contemplating whether there is some other guy out there that is more of an adoring nature or if that is even something that I want in a significant other. Am I just settling for my bf or should I be out there waiting for a prince who will put me on a pedestal? But I'm afraid to leave him too because I think we love each other. But is it a sign that I'm having these doubts at all? What if I leave and he finds someone else? What if there's no one better out there for me? Am I just overthinking again? I can go on and on about all my worries. But I'd like some advice on the matter all the same.
I've been with my bf for a year now. At first he was an incredible sweet and shy guy but as I got to know him better he's actually quite different from his first impression. He's a jokster and is always trying to be funny or a smart ass. I find this amusing sometimes but he can be embarrassing to be around especially around my family.
He tells me he loves me and we have a lot of very tender moments. But he's emotionally withdrawn and rarely talks about his feelings or even his family. When I ask him questions he'll act like I'm prying into him. He can also be rude to me and hurt my feelings by some of his dumb jokes. I humor him sometimes and laugh but other times I hate being the butt of his jokes. He doesn't make fun of me in front of his friends or anything (anymore anyway, we had a talk about it) but it still gets on my nerves. Even his best friend has told me that he thinks my bf is dumb for not realizing what a great girl I am.
Its not all him, I know that I over think a lot... I've been told A LOT. I have an active imagination and sometimes when I'm not with him I get very suspicious of what he is doing. I don't know if I can trust him to not do something stupid like cheat on me or something. Whenever I start getting suspicious or paranoid he'll get moody and tell me I'm acting weird and he doesn't want to talk to me.
Good things about our relationship is that he makes me laugh. He can be very tender and I like it when tells me how much he loves me in such a soft way. I think he's smart but he can be arrogant about it. We can spend an entire evening hanging out just watching tv and have a great time. We don't have many date nights because we're both tight on money (especially him) but we'll always have a good time together.
Our life use to be very steamy and I've had the best with him as my partner. But lately it seems we've both become self conscious and sometimes can't get all the way past home base. Sometimes I fake it...while other times he keeps going until exhausted but doesn't cum...
My point is... he's not perfect and there are definitely things I wish were different and I've been contemplating whether there is some other guy out there that is more of an adoring nature or if that is even something that I want in a significant other. Am I just settling for my bf or should I be out there waiting for a prince who will put me on a pedestal? But I'm afraid to leave him too because I think we love each other. But is it a sign that I'm having these doubts at all? What if I leave and he finds someone else? What if there's no one better out there for me? Am I just overthinking again? I can go on and on about all my worries. But I'd like some advice on the matter all the same.