Rose In Oz
07-08-2005, 06:59 PM
Its now 4.00am in Sydney, Australia. Sleep is not coming too easily these days..in fact it hasnt for 5 nights. Weight is dropping off so quickly. The computer seems to be my only friend at the moment, hence my search for relationship forums. Im hating myself because I have been snapping at the kids for no reason at all. Im in a hole and want to dig myself out... help!
Profile of a man
On one side he has a great personality, gregarious, humorous, friendly, down to earth, and a wonderful loving dad. He captivates people with his natural charm and humour. This of course applies to the women he encounters. On the other side its hard to imagine that this same man can also be cruel, heartless and a player of the biggest variety. In regard to women he scouts, finds, draws them in and captivates them with his charm. Along the way he gives his undivided attention to them, says things that bring them to great heights. He entices women to say things that he definitely wants to hear, perhaps that is because women are under his spell and so swept away with him that they instinctively continue to boost his ego and with encouragement from him get so wrapt up in his charm. He takes what he wants from them at the time and generally sits back for a great old ego boost. He tires of them easily and is always on the prowl for his next conquest. Without warning, without a second glance, without any compassion, without any sensitivity, without any shame, without any apology or explanation, he has had his chew and is now ready to spit out. We are talking about a heart here, not a tangible thing. That’s right, he takes your heart into his hand, plays with it, caresses it, holds it dear (seemingly) then rips is out, throws it down and stamps on it.
No explanation given. The spark is gone he says and this can happen all in a matter of 24 hours. One day you believe that you are both in total harmony, the next day its kapow – gone! It’s a bit like having two perfectly healthy legs and then waking one day to find that they have both been cut from the knees and when you ask why, the answer is that they didn’t work anymore even though they worked perfectly fine only hours before. When questioning the whys, there is silence, there is avoidance there is nothing..zip. There is diversion to other matters which is another one of his ploys that he uses often with his children and that many a child phycologist preaches but hang on – that doesn’t work with adults, particularly adults that you are having a supposed relationship with. I don’t want to talk about it he says!
That is the man that I encountered, that was my heart that he played with, they were my legs that were cut off.
My children are also perplexed and in their own way grieving as well, for the loss of who seemed to be a great friend to them and for the loss their mum has endured. I still don’t understand and will never be able to comprehend that such cruelty exists.
Thanks for listening...
Rose
Profile of a man
On one side he has a great personality, gregarious, humorous, friendly, down to earth, and a wonderful loving dad. He captivates people with his natural charm and humour. This of course applies to the women he encounters. On the other side its hard to imagine that this same man can also be cruel, heartless and a player of the biggest variety. In regard to women he scouts, finds, draws them in and captivates them with his charm. Along the way he gives his undivided attention to them, says things that bring them to great heights. He entices women to say things that he definitely wants to hear, perhaps that is because women are under his spell and so swept away with him that they instinctively continue to boost his ego and with encouragement from him get so wrapt up in his charm. He takes what he wants from them at the time and generally sits back for a great old ego boost. He tires of them easily and is always on the prowl for his next conquest. Without warning, without a second glance, without any compassion, without any sensitivity, without any shame, without any apology or explanation, he has had his chew and is now ready to spit out. We are talking about a heart here, not a tangible thing. That’s right, he takes your heart into his hand, plays with it, caresses it, holds it dear (seemingly) then rips is out, throws it down and stamps on it.
No explanation given. The spark is gone he says and this can happen all in a matter of 24 hours. One day you believe that you are both in total harmony, the next day its kapow – gone! It’s a bit like having two perfectly healthy legs and then waking one day to find that they have both been cut from the knees and when you ask why, the answer is that they didn’t work anymore even though they worked perfectly fine only hours before. When questioning the whys, there is silence, there is avoidance there is nothing..zip. There is diversion to other matters which is another one of his ploys that he uses often with his children and that many a child phycologist preaches but hang on – that doesn’t work with adults, particularly adults that you are having a supposed relationship with. I don’t want to talk about it he says!
That is the man that I encountered, that was my heart that he played with, they were my legs that were cut off.
My children are also perplexed and in their own way grieving as well, for the loss of who seemed to be a great friend to them and for the loss their mum has endured. I still don’t understand and will never be able to comprehend that such cruelty exists.
Thanks for listening...
Rose